And as I start to type I keep thinking: I wish I could type this one in Arabic (my mother tongue) and I put the theory to the test and even though I can’t type in Arabic using this keyboard I started thinking of what I would say if I were to say it all in Arabic and no surprise I got stuck I couldn’t find the words.
It say s something doesn’t it? About my desire to express myself or the lack of which at this particular moment. It is like I am too angry and there is a chance I may feel less angry if I expressed my anger. It is like anger is my defence mechanism against what’s bothering me and I don’t want to let go.
funny enough just by typing what I just did the feeling of a heavy heart slowly goes away. The situation hasn’t changed though and more importantly it will keep repeating. Oh well, I feel better now and I have to just take it one day at a time. (Its not like I can do otherwise).